Living Outside the Stacks

Navigating through life away from the library


Unanswered Prayers

The KidsI’ve spent the last year feeling sorry for myself and being  angry as hell because I don’t have a full~time job.  Honestly, I just couldn’t move past the thought of being financially dependent on my husband and sitting at home all day long.  Before anyone jumps on me, understand this:

  1. My husband has never made me feel less than for not having full~time employment, these were feelings of my own creation
  2. My children are teenagers so I’m not tending to little people like most SAHMs

I need to work.  I like having a paycheck and I love having some place to go every day.  And being a librarian was tailor made for me ~ it appealed to my inner g33ky book lover need to solve a mystery nurturing side.

When my kids were little, I was a SAHM and I hated it.  There wasn’t the community for SAHMs that exists today.  I was so incredibly lonely.  And when I did get the chance to talk to people, they were so dismissive of the role/importance of motherhood.  I didn’t truly appreciate the opportunity that I had until today.

This morning my children started school:  Miss 17 is a senior, the twins are in 9th grade and the youngest is in 8th grade.  From this point on, my time with my babies is limited.  When they were younger, I knew I had at least 18 years.  Now…  Oh man…  I’ve already started shedding tears.

Looking back on this past year has been a blessing in disguise.  I’ve had a year to spend with my kids, talking to them and loving them, making memories that will, hopefully, carry them into adulthood.  My husband likes to point out the blessings in the disappointments that I simply can’t see but sitting here tonight, filling out permission slips and health forms, the only thing I can say is “I thank God for unanswered prayers.”


Monday Mingle: Back to School Celebration Vlog/Blog

Monday Mingle BadgeMonday Mingle is hosted by Eighty MPH Mom. If you’d like to participate, simply create a short vlog in which you answer the questions and then hit up the linky. Don’t forget to grab the badge and leave some comment love for your fellow participants. Afterall, isn’t that what mingling is all about?

Today’s questions are from Robyn at Robyn’s Online World:

1.  What does your extended family think of your blog?
2. Has anyone in your family ever asked you not to include them in your blog?
3. How supportive is your immediate household about your blogging?

Next week’s questions are:

1. Are you going to BlogHer 11 in San Diego?
2. Have you been to any blogging events? Which ones are you planning on going to besides BlogHer?
3. Are you afraid to fly and, if so, does it prevent you from going places?


Online Book Club: The Handmaid’s Tale

The Handmaid's TaleA few weeks ago I joined an online book discussion group hosted by Trish at Hey Lady! Whatcha Readin’?  The actual discussion takes place at Classic Reads Book Club and the discussions are truly awesome.  We’re reading The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood, this is one of my favorite books.  I read it in high school and again in college.  I’ve even referenced it in papers when I took women’s history/studies courses.

Honestly, the topics for discussion are endless:  women, fertility, religious freedom, tolerance, politics, marriage, children, etc.  If you’ve never read this book, I’d highly recommend it.

I’ve tried to read other Margaret Atwood’s but I just didn’t get it (maybe I was too young)  but after I’m finished with The Handmaid’s Tale, I’m going to give Blind Assassins another whirl.  I’m nothing if not tenacious.

Do you have a favorite classic author?  Have you ever participated in an online book group?  Did you enjoy it?

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